The issue with loving someone else, is that once you start loving them, you can't stop.
Everything they do becomes everything you do, and your lives become so intertwined, even if you're not actually together. You sit, worrying about whether or not they made it home okay and send them a text saying "Get home safe."
That "get home safe" means something. It means, "If you were anything but safe right now I'd be at your side in an instant." It means, "Don't you dare leave me tonight because then I won't live to see the next day." It means, "I love you." And if you get a "get home safe" you're sure as hell getting an "I love you." Because if that person doesn't get home safe, you're screwed as well. Because them getting home safe, is all that matters.
Have you ever sat on the couch waiting for someone to come home? And when they don't get home on time or when you thought they would or said they'd be home, you panic?
That's me right now. I'm losing it. Because if my whole world doesn't get home safe right now, I will search for them until the ends of the earth collide.
The problem is, is that we're not actually together.
But even though we're not, I want him to get home safe.
I guess I'll hit send, just so he can know I want him home safe.
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